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I'm sorry people for not updating my blog. I've got nothing to update. But I'll update soon ya ? Forgive me. I love you dear readers ♥  

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Fishing on Saturday night till Sunday morning, Church in the afternoon and Carabao' World Tour Concert in the night.. Supper at Golden Mile.

I feel as though your love is fading away. You don't seem to care anymore. All you do is flirt.

You forbid me from talking - chatting online - texting with guys, even my guy friends, and I stopped. 

Now, you're flirting around as if I don't know.

I really don't know what is holding me back, from letting him go.

He just not worth my love at all, but why am I not doing something about it at all.

Continue to let him hurt me, making me lose confidences in myself.

My imaginations isn't helping at all. Its running wild inside. 

Sometimes, I just wished that someone, something would just come and end this torture. 

Smile captured

Yes  I know that some of my face expressions are weird, but that's the way I am. 

Been trying to stop thinking of the things that would make me feel stressed and emotional. I feel better, a lot better. Smiling a lot lately. Thank God. Nothing much to elaborate already. Been going out with my brothers a lot lately. Missing my boyfriend a lot. Hopes he misses me too.

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Sad life

Life just bloody suck for me now at this point in time. School, friends and even relationship. I don't know to do really, should I believe what my eyes saw ? Or just hear him explain first? Friends, I don't know whether am I making friends with the right person ? The one that goes behind me spouting my craps, sabotaging me, pulling me into situation that I don't even know what I did. Life is really hard. Sigh, things are not working out. I really need someone to talk to now. I'm trying hard to not cry out, not going to show people around me that I'm sad. I fail at everything. I suck. I'm dumb. Bye.

Stressful-ness

I'm glad things are starting to work out. Although its far from perfect, its still better then nothing. My tattoo is getting uglier as each day. Either I go and do some touch up or I'll laser it off. Most probably is to laser it off before it will cost me a lot of problems. I made a plan, if you ever ignore me, i'll get myself hospitalized and you'll have to come and look after me. To attract your attention, i'll do this. Studies- I've bee studying a lot lately, and I have to work harder. Have a little sip of alcohol today, and a few sticks of cigarettes. To relieved my latest stresses. Yes, I know, its the most stupidest ways of relieving stresses, but I had to do it this way, for me.

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Pathetic fake smile.

My Pathetic relationship, it was pathetic enough and I made it worsen. Its totally my fault, I don't blame him, I understand completely, I was dumb, dumb enough to not know what I was doing and the consequences after I do it. All I can do is ask for forgiveness and I'll go according to God's plan. I may look happy, cheerful, but I've been crying a lot lately, cry alone. Bless me Lord.

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Tiredness

As you can see around the flower is a bit reddish as its swelling. Yes it hurts.

I would probably be in a lot trouble tomorrow for not turning up in detention today. Oops, I WAS TOO TIRED. I slept the whole science lesson and even after it ended Nobody bothered to wake me up, but finally my science teacher came with irdawati to me and woke me up. He was like "Are you always like that or just in my class? " I told him I wasn't feeling very well, yeah he was quite understand, such a nice teacher I have. Weeeeeeeee, getting my phone back tomorrow ^^ Byebye.

I did it.

A clearer picture of my new tattoo ♥

Not so clear, taken by webcam (: 

Not really stressed out now, sorry people who advised me not to do it, I just have to. I'm just too stressed out. It hurts like hell, only when the needle in poking through your skin, but its painless after that. Spent like 2-3 hours choosing and doing it. Most painful part ? The coloring, the outline was that painful on the fats but on the bone ? OUCH. Can't wait to be in bikinis to show it off to everyone ♥ Bye.

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Almost .

Almost went through a breakup, but didn't at the end. Thank God. I was like starting to cry then a minute later I was like smiling, because we made a deal instead of breaking up. Yeah, many people don't understand why I chose to be with him, even I, myself, don't know why. People encouraged me to break, I admitted that at times I really wanted to, but I didn't. I'm just really relieved. I'm not supposed to call,text or even Facebook any guy. Sorry guys. Anyways, my phone got confiscated. And I'm getting it back on Friday. Good Night. Tattoo tomorrow. Bye .